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RIP Robin Williams / 15 August 2014

It has taken me a while to write about Robin Williams for several reasons. I thought: why do it because he can’t read it, nor can I ease his family’s pain. Also, it has unsettled me deeply, because I can identify with his situation and am a bit more scared for myself.

You either loved Robin Williams or hated him. I loved his work, so much of it was putting a hand into human darkness and pain and bringing out beautiful words and laughter. Thank you, Robin, for that.

But now his beautiful heart will beat no more. He will create no more. There will be no more laughter – his or others. He is the curator of no more dreams. But also his pain has stilled in the razor storm.

One million people commit suicide a year. One million people’s laughter extinguished. Their silence is so painful, but I so understand their need for peace. I want the world and life to be their peace instead. I have realised my life will never be peaceful. It will be a place of constant hurt, chaos and confusion. But my hand is held very tightly by some beautiful people, like partner, friends, and fellow artists. So what can I do but stay?

Comments

Rona Topaz

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20 August 2014

I have a theory, and it is only a theory because it's not proven. But here's why I believe Robin Williams killed himself...

His children were fully grown, and he felt less needed. He was paying alimony to 2 ex wives which left him in a poor state financially. He had fallen off the wagon and had started drinking. He only returned from rehab 2 weeks before his suicide, although he was sober when he decided to end his life. He was fasinated by suicide and had suicidal tendencies dating back 5 years. His last stand up tour was called "weapon of self destruction". He was lonely and miserable as a child-the comic strip "Richie Rich-the poor little rich boy", was modelled on his childhood. He grew up wealthy and friendless-his best friend was his butler , who acted as a bodyguard as his family was frightened of his being kidnapped. His closest friends died at quite young ages, and Robin had tremendous guilt at outliving them by several decades. His career was in decline- he played a TV role because he could no longer get leading work in film. Finally-and I think this was the primary reason- he was diagnosed with Parkinson's and he did not want to live long enough to become a burden to his family. So in a way, it was out of love for them that he chose to stop living.... RIP.

phil baird

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16 August 2014

Keep on keeping on being, creative in contact and caring...

Sophie P.

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16 August 2014

This has made me very sad this week; and now that it's `come out' he had Parkinson's Disease, media generally just goes "Oh well that's alright then, it's ok now"...

:-(/

Jacqui Cavalier

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16 August 2014

To hold hands requires two (or more) people. Through your friendship and blogs, your art and your writings maybe you are holding many more hands of others than you think. Keep holding those hands !

Colin

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15 August 2014

Robin Williams will be sorely missed. He had such an enormous talent. I loved much of his work, but knew little about his battles with depression.