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Tattoo - A Poem / 23 March 2012

(language may offend)

Tattoo

They are there to erase the words“
Cunt, cunt, cunt, cunt, cunt…”
Written under my skin
The story my daddy wrote and still wants to write

Without sun, without stars, without flight
and love
Where the paper would end up in the bin.

I know my torture bores you.
This skin is torn and stuck together again
I can turn total skin to total scar
But that is still his story – not mine

So now my skin holds sun, stars and flight
Love is coming slowly
The flesh will wrinkle, the flesh will rot
But the stars, the sun – and my story –
will not.

Keywords: poetry,self-harm

Comments

Dolly Sen

/
29 March 2012

Thanks Richard. We carry abuse in our bodies, dreams, and the story we tell ourselves. I used to use self harm to scratch out the words that festered under my skin. But by happy accident I found creativity, which can turn pain into poetry, and you can always paint a sun over the darkest night. That's its power. But fundamentally it will tell the story that belongs to me.

Dolly Sen

/
29 March 2012

Thanks Richard. We carry abuse in our bodies, dreams, and the story we tell ourselves. I used to use self harm to scratch out the words that festered under my skin. But my happy accident I found creativity, which can turn pain into poetry, and you can always paint a sun over the darkest night. That's its power. But fundamentally it will tell the story that belongs to me.

richard downes

/
26 March 2012

i was very moved when i first read this. I could think of people who i know who would really appreciate reading it. To articulate a shared experience from your own story is very important. Abuse offends. The word cunt should not except where it is used to offend - which is far too often the case.

I am left wondering what the word means to you. If it is an abuse that turned ion on you and which you used to turn the abuse back out.

I am also encouraged to see both a) your survival and b) your development. Hope the bad days get less and the good days become more