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My name's Bonk and I love to write, when my brain hurts and gets too tight! I am bi-polar please don't be scared… don't run… just listen, as I get prepared. Open your eyes… I hope you enjoy my thoughts. And so I'll begin with a poem or some daily reports.

Older and colder - Day 6

24 October 2014

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I hate this time of year
now it starts to get colder and
I turn my heating on
Watch as the elderly struggle to keep warm.
Take some time to notice
Or just actually give a fuck
As that old man or lady down the road
Might be struggling or stuck
'cause that'll be us when we're older
when our hair turns to white
then we'll be the ones getting colder
as we shiver our way through the night

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Alive - day 5

21 October 2014

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So on day five still feeling alive Out for food, best mate by my side Mood has slowed down and I'm not feeling so high I can still smile but it's beginning to slide. Okay verse in depth, let's see what I say I'm meant to be a mad poet anyway Wide eyed and focus on the shadows of past Look for the demons that watch through mirrored glass Paranoid I am not. So I'm calling them out The voices that torment me are on longer about Listen intently to see if I'm still mad But...

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Hurray Hurrah - Day 4

21 October 2014

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I'm alive and out of my bed These tablets I can feel as my body digests My mind is clear but now racing like a jet Synthetic I know, But it's filling the gaps As I venture around and now out the door Iv not felt this good before I don't feel lathargic Or stuck in bad mood I feel naughty and cheeky, So sorry if I'm rude But I feel like it's working and I'm climbing back from the dead I'm not a great believer in medication But this time it seems that these pills are...

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King Bonk - Day 3

21 October 2014

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So a thirty day test to continue to write a poem a day to capture insight Let's see what effects these new pills start to bring And if I can still perform and sing I feel okay though it's only day three It's normally about 4 weeks till the med start to work But right now I'm fine head doesn't hurt I'm not depressed I'm just in my low Worried about mania when the prozac starts to show BEWARE when the cycle is in full swing And I'm up in the clouds - the bipolar...

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Fade away - Day 2

20 October 2014

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Distancing myself
from the mist that echoes my name
Medication is nearing,
Inner memories being tamed
Will it put out or dampen my flame
Who to ask when point finger of blame
I can write for now as I will each day
Until the pills make creativity waste away

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The DWP Protest - Bring on the clowns!

2 July 2014

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On the 4th I'll be going dressed up as a clown but with helmet and whistle - do I see you frown? Yes, I'm promoting myself to Inspector that day my blue flashing light keeping real cops at bay we don't want a replay of what went before when the Dean of Westminster slammed compassions wide door With Bonk as Inspector they'll think before they arrest his brothers and sisters on their protest day But I've not come alone I've invited a gang of other great clowns who'll...

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The Westminster Protest

2 July 2014

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Where is the media when real news is about? reporting on celebrities, of this I've no doubt When thousands of people were out on the streets the BBC was silent, just playing repeats But when DPAC stood firm along with sisters and brothers and the old bill turned out in their hundreds to smother a protest of peace held inside the church grounds disabled people - that brought heavy frowns from the Dean of Westminster who shouted forlorn "Get these terrorists out; off our sanctified...

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We love Glenda Jackson

2 July 2014

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Glenda Jackson, amazing MP, I listened to you with awe as you grab IDS by his shiny lapels and use him to wipe the floor "He's lost touch with reality" we all hear you say "He'll be walking on water if he had his way!" Your passion is blinding your rhetoric cuts like a rapier flashing to slice at this klutz cutting right to the heart of his bullying ways your withering look skewers all that he says as you pour out your scorn quoting facts after fact He slumps in his...

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Collaboration

20 June 2014

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You've probably noticed that I've not been adding to my blog for a while. Well, this is because I've been taking my work into another dimension - that of music. Working alongside talented singer-song writer Simon (Woody) Wood, we've managed to add an extra depth to some of my work. Poems such as 'Are you mad yet' get an added touch of irony when sung to Woody's up-beat musical score. Cameleon also benefits from Woody's clear singing style alongside of my earthier...

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At this year's Dandifest

8 May 2014

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I'm here in a churchyard invited by Vince to join with the Dandies and dance A bit taken aback by the range of their art so I sit for a while in a trance They have taken this town by surprise and by storm Pride and proud with their flags waving free Everyone friendly and so full of life surely, this is the way it should be Brilliant blue is the sky as it soars overhead and folk dressed as daisies perform A background of chatter, like birds in the trees and we all think 'this should be...

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Pissed Off

7 May 2014

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They say that they will stop us from protesting in the streets they say we are all scroungers and benefit claimant cheats They're bringing out the big guns to stop us in our track if we make our protest public, it's their duty to attack with water cannon mounted on a heavily armoured truck they'll shoot the legs from under us, 'cause they don't give a fuck But Bonk's going to dispel them and take back all our power by cleaning out the government with his holy water...

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Beware the Clown

28 April 2014

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  In the disguise of the clown it's a statement I make A painted vision of what’s really at stake Laugh at me, I'm sure you will as I walk in face paint on up the hill My hands droop down, my balloons are deflated all this crap makes me constipated! I shout: I'M THE CLOWN OF JUSTICE AND I'VE COME TO LET YOU KNOW THAT IT'S TIME FOR IDS TO GO REVOLUTION FOR THE PEOPLE I STAND HERE FOR THEM PORTRAYING OUR ANGER FOR NEWS AT 10 I hear them laughing, mutter under their...

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Fuck the presentation!

30 March 2014

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You may start to notice a slight change in my writing style as I get more in touch with the anger that I feel towards this government and their war of attrition against disabled people. Sometimes I have so much churning around in my head that I have difficulty in getting the words out, never mind getting them onto my Blog in a clear and lucid format. So excuse the spelling errors, the poor grammar and lack of punctuation sometimes. I just need to say it, and fuck the presentation!...

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RESULT!

16 March 2014

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When we all gathered nationwide lots of Crips standing side by side   We stood with pride outside Atos' door mindful of those who'd gone before We shouted out that Atos killed reminding them of the blood they've spilled Did they hear what we were saying and recognise our pain while praying A silent march around the block whilst Atos staff looked on in shock We came in the morning and stayed all day the police were about but they stayed well away The demo a success, our team...

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Putrid Farce!

28 February 2014

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The final count down has begun so says Bonk, old Crippen's son. He's travelled far and journeyed wide to make sure ATOS cannot hide He's on the way with foot in door he's going to even up the score With ringing shout and banner high   this Atos kills you'll hear him cry So Atos workers if you must in your bosses cease to trust Then join us here as we protest throughout the country, be our guest Just quite your jobs, leave right away 'cause Atos stands with feet of...

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Only eight days more!

11 February 2014

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Only eight days more untill we start our shout telling all the people, what ATOS is about We don't give a damn if it's all bad weather we'll make our point quite forcibly by coming all together Remembering those people who've all died in pain mistreated by ATOS for just some monetary gain The memory of them all, held by us with pride no reason at all for so many to have died So as we gather proudly, in our mass numbers to protest once against, about those ATOS blunders As...

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Why I write in Rhyme?

6 February 2014

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You ask me why I write in rhyme, do I really do it all the time? Why I communicate in verse, does it make my thoughts seem terse? What's the reason for this style, easier my thoughts to file? My poems they need to be compact, to cram in feelings and some fact. Condensed, distilled, more punch it packs, I have to keep it on the tracks. But then my verses can be dark, beware the bite that's in this bark. My anger it just spills right out, and then my poems become a shout! All those...

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Slower ...

4 February 2014

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What's your problem they ask me, why can't you just chill?
You don't have to do anything, you're supposed to be ill!
The doctors and specialists all say the same
Don't expect an improvement, your mind is quite lame!
Just keeping taking these tablets and then you will see
that it all becomes slower ...

and slower ...

and s-l-o-w-e-r

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ATOS demon

3 February 2014

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Let Atos assess us and cut us away away from the lifeline that benefit's pay Tell the public we're wasters, we're all on the con we're not really disabled, the conclusions forgone put us all in the workhouse, get us all of the streets keep society tidy, hide us benefit cheats Being shown as the scapegoats, it's not really the bankers blame us poor bloody cripples not those greedy fat wankers! So let's shout out our anger, exposing our pain let the world know we're...

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Are you mad yet?!

28 January 2014

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Are you mad yet? They're killing off our brothers our sisters, all those others Are you mad yet? They say we all are faking And the benefits we're taking Are you mad yet? We’re the reason there's no money in this land of milk and honey Are you mad yet? They're making us the scapegoats with an endless flow of bad quotes Are you mad yet? in the media, which they own as they cut us to the bone Are you mad yet? THEN WHY AREN'T YOU MAD...

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Find me?

26 January 2014

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Woke up, got dressed, straight out to play used to wonder what I'll find that day? I could go anywhere, be home when I like no one will notice if I'm not back till night. I travelled and wandered, imagination gone mad been my own secret agent, a spy, not a lad. With scabs on my knees and scrapes up my arms I'd wander through fields and trespass on farms. Climbing tall trees and walking on walls Lost in a bubble, no real thought about falls. Talking to strangers, I trust everyone...

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ATOS kills

22 January 2014

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Countdown - only 29 more days to the big ATOS demo on 19th Feb 2014 This Atos kills at random, slaughtering in batches raking in the profits and not paying any taxes. To them you're not a person, you're just a pot of money to fill up their deep pockets like an ant collecting honey. There's no respect and your rights they don't exist you're just being processed, it's pointless to resist. 'So what' if it wrecks you and makes you end your life they'll even hold...

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You're just as vulnerable

18 January 2014

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Countdown - only 33 more days to the big Atos demo on 19th Feb 2014 The callous way they're culling us and generating fear using us as scapegoats whilst they plunder from the rear Using media buddies to cover up who dies turning ordinary folk against us with their cruel, distorted lies Creating a new underclass, something folks should fear Telling them we're leaches, that the picture's very clear If they want to keep their comforts and their 'happy hour' lives then the...

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COUNTDOWN - only 36 days!

15 January 2014

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Countdown - only 36 days to the big Atos demo on 19th Feb 2014 Jack and Jill went up the hill to be assessed by Atos They threw Jack down and broke his crown to show him who's the real boss But Jill got mad said this was bad and started off an action The flame was fanned throughout the land the protest just a fraction Of what we thought of those who sought to cull us with their system The blood they spill when Atos kill but we're the ones who'll stop them   Please click here...

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Stuff medication

14 January 2014

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But I'm more than this label (Bipolar its name) there's a real me inside here still fanning the flame of my creativity, my unique way of painting a picture with words that hold sway over your imagination, the way you construe how we struggle to live in this world, and our view of the way that you see us, the way that you think that without medication we'd all surely sink. But better to fly without your safety net our minds spinning freely, our thoughts like a jet of such vast...

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